Please know it is with the utmost honestly that this affliction allows when I tell you I don't have an clear answer for this.. confession. Normally when people confess to me I can easily dismiss them based on the fact alone they don't know me. You, however, know more about me than any of them. To reject you on that principle alone would be a blatant lie- one I am incapable of doing and would not bother with if i could, based on its transparency.

I don't think I know you as you know me. You have seen the worst sides of me and I feel I know only your good. You are constantly surprising me and while I don't believe I could ever think less of you, my esteem for you has only risen since the day you carried me from the TV world. I don't wish to reject you, but based on my clearly incomplete understanding of you, I don't feel right accepting. Without knowing you, I don't know what you want from me as a.. girlfriend. I know I would be inadequate in many ways, nor am I sure how ready I am to shed my superficial yet coveted image as a 'cool detective'. In short, I don't feel I know you- or myself- well enough, to do a relationship with you a service. As I am, I'm not as strong a man as you and I am not very confidant in being a woman either. I'm too weak.

Finally, you haven't said these things by your own will. Forcing you into some arrangement purely because this event warped you to reveal yourself.. I wouldn't take advantage of you in that way. I'm not saying no, and I don't want you to leave more than anything. But I don't understand why you would want me to say yes.