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[twinknife]

..... Uh, crap. So I think.... I may be getting written up at work? I mean Yamada TOTALLY had it coming, thinking he could bully me in front of the rest of the staff now that he's no longer answering directly to my dad - and his breath DOES smell like something crawled out of his ass and then into his mouth and died in there!!

But maybe.... declaring it to the entire break-room wasn't the best idea...



Heh, on the plus side, I think I really endeared myself to some of the other part-timers? Masutaka even invited me out to a goukon with some college girls this weekend.... wild. If I had known letting my temper get the best of me in front of the sales floor director would make me popular at work, I might've done it ages ago! .... Err..... well, no probably not.


Man, what the heck's up with me today? First I can't get a reign on my mood, now I'm on overshare mode? Maybe I partied a little too hard this weekend....

Comments

[gotbent]

uhhh don't answer that

[expositional]

Of course you like me, we're friends.

[gotbent]

that isnt what i meant, but okay

[expositional]

I know what you meant but I'm pretending that's not what you said.

[expositional]

ah..

[expositional]

It's just when people confess to me, then they leave me.

[gotbent]

man you have been confessed to by some stupid dudes then huh

[gotbent]

ugh w/e either way i am not goin anywhere unless you kick me out, i like our apartment

[expositional]

[expositional]

[expositional]

I suppose I should have imagined you would be unexpectedly cool when I am at my worst.

[expositional]

Please know it is with the utmost honestly that this affliction allows when I tell you I don't have an clear answer for this.. confession. Normally when people confess to me I can easily dismiss them based on the fact alone they don't know me. You, however, know more about me than any of them. To reject you on that principle alone would be a blatant lie- one I am incapable of doing and would not bother with if i could, based on its transparency.

I don't think I know you as you know me. You have seen the worst sides of me and I feel I know only your good. You are constantly surprising me and while I don't believe I could ever think less of you, my esteem for you has only risen since the day you carried me from the TV world. I don't wish to reject you, but based on my clearly incomplete understanding of you, I don't feel right accepting. Without knowing you, I don't know what you want from me as a.. girlfriend. I know I would be inadequate in many ways, nor am I sure how ready I am to shed my superficial yet coveted image as a 'cool detective'. In short, I don't feel I know you- or myself- well enough, to do a relationship with you a service. As I am, I'm not as strong a man as you and I am not very confidant in being a woman either. I'm too weak.

Finally, you haven't said these things by your own will. Forcing you into some arrangement purely because this event warped you to reveal yourself.. I wouldn't take advantage of you in that way. I'm not saying no, and I don't want you to leave more than anything. But I don't understand why you would want me to say yes.

[gotbent]

insane character count aside, that is better than i was expectin

i dont really know what i was thinking about as far as girlfriedn or whatever, just that i like you and, you know. i wanted to say it anyway i just didnt have the balls before.

anyway im not gonna lie, im relieved about you not having to see my shadow or my bad parts or whatever, wasnt my finest hour. but if you wanna know i can tell you

far as you bein not a strong man or a weak woman or whatever none of that makes any diffrence to me. never has. naoto is naoto, that is all i got. i'm too dumb for anythin else. sorry.

far as wanting you to say yes, that you are a famous boy detective but cant figure out somethin that simple is part of it, aint gonna lie. ill tell you some other time but if you ask me for a list i am gonna take WAY too long typin this thig

anyway im not goin anywhere so we can set this aside until things get more normal if you want.

[expositional]

Please don't give me a list, this is more than sufficiently embarrassing enough. I don't know why I even said that or anything for that matter. ah- Would you know what we're supposed to do from this point? I only have experience rejecting these types of things.

[expositional]

This heart rate can not be healthy..

[gotbent]

yo if you got experience rejectin you got more experience than me

look i am gonna go for a walk for a bit, yosuke sempai just texted me about havin something to talk about and my head is all like. thirty zios in a row from all this truthing

you want i should bring you a coffee back

[gotbent]

or uh maybe a coffee would be bad for your heart rate

[expositional]

No I'm just going to lie down


Or watch detective conan.

[gotbent]

Sorry I called you Mori Kougouro I didnt mean it

[expositional]

Thank you, I appreciate that.

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a-And the confession, of course.